10/28/2007

I have gained around 22 pounds and I feel miserable. Thats what prompted me to start writing. Let me tell you about myself a bit. I am a college student and have am in process of going through a breakup, at least attempting to. I am 5"6-5"7. I weigh currently around 199 pounds. I weighed my lowest at 177 and I looked wonderful but needed to still lose around 15 pounds and I would have had a flat tummy. I had beautiful curves, small waist and big hips. My confidence sky rocketted and I had dates left and right because I stopped being that shy girl at the corner and actually started talking more. I have gained weight because I have stopped going to the gym and started binge eating again. I have had this problem since I was a child. I also started going out with a generous guy who fed me 3 square meals a day and a lot of feta chease, pasta, and cakes. Put that together with no more gym thats where you get 22 pounds. I have been in a bad mood since I gained weight. I look horrible in a bikini and my celullite is out of this world. I have saddle bags and My face is not as pretty since it is round now. My goal is to lose around 1.5 pounds a week. My ultimate goal is to be 160 pounds. My mini goals are going to be 5 pound goals. Everytime I lose 5 pounds I will celebrate by buying myself something nice. Either a pair of shoes or a nice skirt. I have a vacation booked at the end of January but it might get pushed up to end of december. I have 8 weeks until then. 1.5 pounds X 8 weeks= 187 pounds. I need to up to at least 183. I will need to work out and eat right.